Another relapse?

I can't believe I am even posting again for myself this time. I have been doing so well up until now. Most of you know I had a baby about 8 months ago. I was warned that a relapse could occur after birth, but after her birth, I felt so good that I really didn't think it would happen. I always had some not so good days with some slight symptoms here and there, but they always passed and I always felt good again so I didn't worry too much about it and was going to do some natural therapies just to stay doing well. Well, it seems the past week or so my symptoms are much worse and I do feel like I am in an full blown relapse again. I know it takes time for the body to heal from having a baby, especially if you go into it not 100%, but this is just awful. I have decided to go back on abx for the next coming months as to not let this take control of me. But, I have to say that the hardest part is that I have this beautiful daughter so is so amazing and so much fun to be with and I am in bed today unable to take care of her and I don't want this illness to rob me of any time with her or for her to have to have a sick mother which isn't fair to her at all. I have a great family who is helping me out this week, but I am so nervous that it won't pass so quickly as it usually does by now and that going back on treatment will only make me worse before I once again get well and I will miss out on my daughter. I really am down in the dumps today. It is just so crazy as you all know. I felt great on Halloween and was out all day and all night and here I am now in bed feeling just about as bad as you can.

I just wanted to tell you I feel for you. I know it must be hard wanting to take care of your new baby and feeling sick. My children are a little older so at least I can explain when I am not feeling good, but I know they get tired of hearing it. Just remember sometimes a day of rest is the best thing you can do for your family. I completely relate to the feeling better and then relapsing - it is hard to go through these feelings again. I pray you will heal quickly and feel better soon.

Blessings,
Leah

Thank you Leah. I think I would even care as much if it were just me, but to see my little baby needing me and wanting me to be with her and not being able to do much today goes deep. I knew having a baby that this may be in my future and something I would likely have to deal with at some point, but it just came without much warning and fairly soon. I know she won't remember any of this and by the time she is old enough to know better, I pray to be fully well again so she won't have to deal with sick mommy, but I don't want to miss a minute of her life especially with the holidays coming up so I hope this does pass soon and I can go back to feeling ok at least. I don't know how all you mom's do this with little ones. It is pretty much my worst fear coming true right now.