Can someone explain this?

Whenever I stop taking my antibiotics I feel better.  I suffer from many psysical and psychological symptoms from lyme but whenever I stop taking my antibiotics even for a day I feel so much better, especially psychologically.  I have been on treatment for 9 months.  Are the antibiotics making me feel bad or is the die off of bacteria making me feel bad?

keep hope, this lyme thing is very confusing.  I don't believe that anyone really knows the ins and outs of it.  You are stronger willed than i am.  I do not watch my diet and i have not tried any detox methods.  I strictly take doxy, biaxin, probiotics, and a supplement that is supposed to increase serotonin called 5htp.  When i stop taking antibiotics I do not feel perfect but i do feel much better.  I feel like I need to keep on the treatment plan to beat this thing but the truth is I could live with my symptoms when i am not on antibiotics but life is a real struggle while taking them.  I see my LLMD in 2 weeks I let you know what he says about this.