I was lying in bed last night and was overcome with the reality that once again my life has fallen apart. It seems as though I am always starting over. I will get in somewhat of a routine and something happpens and it all falls apart. since Thanknsgiving, I have had so much pain. My house is a mess, my husband feels unloved, I was in the emergency room on Monday, Problems at work, etc. I seriously wonder how long I can take this. I am depressed. I guess I just have to start over again. I just dont feel like I have the spirit to do so. I have been in bed for the last 3 days. Partly becasue of the ER thing but mostly because I dont want to be awake.-----For the last 3.5 years I have had terrible , horrible pain in my arms and shoulders. I went through the whole PT, steroids , everything. When I moved to Georgia a doctor hear found that my problem was an upslipped right hip that was throwing my posture off and causing all the pain. I see an osteopath who is slowing moving my hip into place but all my tendons and muscles havent been used properly in I dont know how long, so the pain is incredible. I have been at this rehab. for only about 3 months. I dont know how long it will take. It is all overwhelimng. It never stops. never.