My heart goes out to you in the decisions that you are needing to make for your wife.
I have read up on your latest posts to catch up...
Follow your heart and your gut instinct. You sound like a very smart man. Your posts are well thought out.
This disease can sometimes put us in a place of feeling desperate to find those answers b/c of the long suffering we see our loved ones going through and quite frankly, b/c of bad behavior that has caused a serious breakdown in the medical community b/c of the politics in moving R&D forward as it should have been. It is wrong that our families are placed in this position. So. please keep asking good questions and only do what you believe is right in your heart to do.
I just wanted to share (hoping that it will be an encouragement to you) - that I will be praying for your strength and for the direction you are to go, to care for your precious wife. I am also going to pray for her health to be restored. She is obviously a very giving and compassionate woman having cared for her mother for so many years. It is a difficult journey we face when the symptoms become so very complicated and life altering.
As you go forward with your quest for the right answer. remember that Lyme mimics and induces other system weaknesses based on many variables within the individual's body. The brain is a complex infrastructure. For some it heals remarkably fast; for some it is a slower steady two steps forward, one back remediation. It all depends on those variables involved for each individual and the areas of the brain involved.
You are right, you have driven a very long way. You deserve the answers to your questions and you need them to meet your satisfaction so that you have peace in your heart that you are doing the right thing. I am encouraging this based on the concerns you shared. I am glad you were able to speak w/Marie.
Feel free to email if you need to talk. Blessings, Sojourner
By the way, Claude, the first vehicle I learned stick shift on at age 16 (way back 'then') was a 1957 Gold Studebaker (I think it was a Packard). I could barely reach the pedals and my dad was the driving instructor in the after school program at our H.S. Imagine how that might have gone down. I was so embarrassed to be driving the most 'old fashioned' car on the lot and had no understanding of classic. The car had belonged to my great, great uncle and dad bought for some change, I believe. I did eventually learn; both to drive it and an appreciation for it.
Post Edited (sojourner) : 2/20/2009 12:22:33 AM (GMT-7)