Under My Skin (Lyme)
Alone, deep in this dark, I hide all of my sorrows from you.
I try to cover my pain, but it flows through my veins no matter what I do.
A monster under my skin, a creature in my head...
makes me wonder what I've done wrong and what I've said.
As my heart grows cold, I feel a hundred years old...
it's under my skin forever, from what I'm told.
Makes me feel like I'm gonna die today...
but wouldn't that be nice because the creatures would have to pay.
How could such a short time feel so long?
And how can such a young life, go so wrong?
People see me and hear me and think Im not true to my word...
because with the monster under my skin, they think I'm seriously disturbed.
Always down, always in pain trying so hard to save face...
as I lay here with tears in my eyes, Jesus is my only saving grace.
Torn between Heaven and Hell...
everyone thinks this story is useless to tell.
I've been one hundred times around the sun...
another year goes by and my life feels done.
Everyday, I deal the cards and roll the dice...
Hope, pain pills, and God are my only vice.
Now I spend time thinking of all my mistakes...
As my mind, my heart, my soul and my body aches.
Spend lots of time thinking of what I've done wrong...
While I search for the path back to where I belong.
Too much pride to take the final plane...
but deep inside, it's under my skin and killing me with pain.
It's a sickness that kills your social life that will never mind...
people come and people go, but right now, I just need a friend...
to touch my heart and feel my pain...
just to let me know that I'm not insane.
I kick, I scream, I curse and yell...
it's under my skin and feels like hell.
I know it will get better with time...
But for now, all I have is reason and rhyme.
It's always with me, it's under my skin and in my bed...
As I lie here with a golden, silk haired angels, hand on my head.
2003 symptoms started
2007 Diagnosed with Lyme. Didn't start treatment.
2008 symptoms came back with a vengence.
2009 Diagnosed with Lyme plus co-infections....Babesia and Bartonella.
Illnesses:-Chronic Lyme Disease,Hashimotos Thyroiditis, Ulcers, Hypoglycemia
Medications:-Biaxin 250mg to start,Mepron,Ultram,Thyro Complex 60mg,Probiotics and supplementsPost Edited (CajunGrl) : 5/26/2009 11:06:02 AM (GMT-6)