Jendays, I am so sorry that you misunderstood what I intended to say. I'm sorry I was not more clear. By reminding you that this feeling is temporary, I was not referring to the disease you are fearing. I was referring to your feelings of hopelessness, despair, and desperation about
all of this. You will have a day (I believe very soon) that you are feeling emotionally and mentally stronger, and you will be better able to deal w/ all your fears. I truly believe this.
This illness is messing w/ my mind something fierce. Even tho I have experienced a lot of relief (knock on wood) from a lot of my pain, (was it a few weeks of abx for other stuff? Is it the vitamin D?), I feel more exhausted and depressed than I had been. That makes everything seem worse, doesn't it?
Again, if we aren't blessed w/ miracles, we must continue to pray for strength. I am praying for yours.
Suspect TBI back in 1972 (year corrected by Mother!) Attacked tonsils, neck, pregnancy (miscarraige), appendix, heart (Mitral Valve prolapse) Hypoglycemia, depression (in the 70's) Scoloisos (genetic), chronic neck and back pain.
Next suspect discovered Mother's Day 2007. Diagnosed Lyme and Bart June 2009. Awaiting many other test results. In treatment for recurrent depression, anxiety, low thyroid. Bit again 7/1/2009 Began 200 mg Doxy