Hi James, Please look over the symptoms for bartonella. It causes a lot of wierd rashes, not just the typical "cat scratch" marks and stretch marks we associate with it. Do your feet or shins hurt? Do you feel lumps along your shin bone? You have a lot of anxiety which is a symptom. At one time you felt guilty as though you were being punished which is another symptom, believe it or not. You had hyperpigmentation which is a symptom. You can also get lack of pigmentation, pea size dark spots, bruises, swelling especially near the ankles and feet that you might think is water retention but it does not dent, spider veins, small papules that look like blood blisters, lumpiness under the skin, eye problems, muscle twitching and I believe muscle soreness. I had no motivation, felt apathetic, disconnected to myself and others but also highly emotional. You may also wake up at night feeling very hot. The labs test for 3 strains of bart but there are over 30 known. You cannot rely completely on tests. It sounds to me like you are very anxious and getting more so. See an LLMD.