I've had every other test done for MS...I don't know what else to do. The brain fog is getting unbearable to the point where it feels like I'm forgetting who I am and who other people are...even though I can name them...I feel so distant from everything, like I'm not really doing or seeing anything that I actually am doing and seeing.
I really feel like I may have MS. And if I do have it, it is a rapidly progressive kind. I do not and have never had clear relapses and remissions...not since the day I got sick. It has been a constant downhill battle and I only remember one day where for a short time I felt somewhat normal.
I know the meds for MS are for management and hopefully preventing future disease progression...and there is absolutely no way I could live knowing I cannot reverse these symptoms. I have NO quality of life. I spent 75% of my time on my mother's couch, had to drop out of college because I can barely remember something two seconds after I've said it...my muscles are so weak I can barely do more than walk to and from a car. I cannot imagine just watching myself deteriorate for the rest of this awful life that I'm living right now.
I'm so lost.
Current treatment (began June 10th 2009):
Biaxin 1000mg/day, Pulsing Flagyl 500mg/day 1 Week Every Month
"Breathe. Let Go. And remind yourself that this very moment is the only one you know you have for sure."