I just ran out of Amox and have an appt w/ a new Dr on Tuesday. He is in Family Practice. The LLMDs here are all booked and/or I cannot afford a Dr who doesn't take insurance
. Our local Lyme Association recommended this family practice to me, as 'knowledgable of Lyme'.
I am very anxious to hear what he says and how he views treatment. Even tho I have read and read and READ about how long treatment might take, I find myself feeling like IF this bacteria could be eradicated, it should have been after almost 3 months of this level of Abx. (3500 mg of Amox) It FEELS like I should have killed it all by now, or else it must be incurable. Instead, my pain, fatigue and depression continue to worsen.
I am discouraged by those of you who have been in treatment for years and are still not well. I thought I would be willing to take abx for a couple of years if necessary, but now feel scared. I am definitely interested in more natural remedies, but am still concerned about the length of time other folks here have been on those and who must constantly keep this bacteria in check.
I do have babs as well, and my LLMD for some reason did not treat it. I note that you all and the Drs say that if the babs is not treated, the Lyme won't get better. How and why is this?? If lyme responds to abx, then why can't the abx knock it out and leave me w/ babs?
I have done so much research and felt like I understood so much, but now feel like I'm going backwards. I'm having trouble believing that all this makes sense.
I waiver between wanting to totally beef up my immune system and seek miracles, and giving up. I'm getting weak and can hardly take pushing myself any longer. My life, which should be good, feels like a total nightmare. I have to work fulltime and supplement my income cleaning, every other week. I have active dogs who need to be walked and taken to the woods to let loose. I don't have any choices there.
I am sorry to be such a whiner, knowing many of you are so much worse, but trying to support myself and my dogs, or to do any of my own chores has become miserable because of the pain and the fatigue. Again, it feels like a living nightmare. I really want to give up, but don't know how to do that either.
Is there any other kind of bacteria that is this difficult to eradicate?? And is it possible that this is incurable for many of us? I don't think I can fight w/ this for years, the way many of you have.
btw, I'm an almost 57 yr old woman, so it ain't easy, as it is.....
Post Edited (+Lyme) : 11/1/2009 3:55:39 PM (GMT-7)