My random thoughts....lol.
Well, I have been on 100mg amox 4 times per day since October 11. So far? Not really much to report. I am nauseas almost all of the time. Appetite was non-existent and now hits hard, but rarely. Dizzy, bad back and rib pain. My skin hurts! Very weird. Oh, and headache..almost constantly and nothing gets rid of it.
I have ordered Emu oil for my rib pain, but don't have it yet. I am trying ginger for my nausea but keep forgetting that I have it, so I don't know if it works or not. I haven't been doing detox baths or footsoaks which is really stupid because I know they work! But, I am just so super lazy and tired all of the time. I am out of money just from all of the vitamins/probiotics/herbs etc. that I have had to buy just between last month and this month. But, I am too sick to work! This is such a hard situation!
Some days I feel like I am getting my brain back, but then other days it is like I have early stages of dementia.
Does anyone know where/how I can get the spices for the detoxing cheap? I looked online at bulk ones, but they are like a high quality spice and more expensive. I'm not gonna eat it!lol.
And, I did have a realization yesterday. I have been beating myself up over the years when I have been too sick to work. Feeling like a complete and total failure, loser, waste, you name it. My parents are helping me now, otherwise I would be homeless. And, I feel TERRIBLE about this! I am too old for them to be supporting me! My realization is this: if I were married and too sick to work and my husband was supporting me, no one would think anything of it. It would be perfectly normal. But, since I am not married, I have to rely on my parents and this is shameful? I think not! I don't care what people think about it anymore! It still bothers me because I wish my parents didn't have to help me, but I am blessed that I have family who can and will help me. Everyone who wants to make fun of me for that or talk behind my back can kiss it!
Anyway, those are my ramblings for the day:) I don't have my sleep study results yet, but have started waking up not breathing again. It happens like 3 out of 7 nights and it is very scary. I take medication to help me sleep and I am afraid I will sleep right through an episode. So, they better freaking hurry up and get me oxygen!
Also, feeling kind of lonely. For the last year I have been totally anti-social. I was agoraphobic for a while, but my new meds are helping with that tremendously. But, it kinda sucks because I am craving interaction! All of the time! And the more I get, the more I want! I almost NEED to go back to work, but I just can't. I just don't know what to do!