That's life on Lyme. I could not be so calm about this if I didn't have absolute faith that it is temporary. I hate feeling like this, and I'm tired of it, and like you I'm angry. I'm angry that I feel this way but mostly I'm angry because of all of the wasted time, money, and misery while I searched helplessly to find out what was making me so sick. No doctor I saw put it together. But that was then, and here I am now at least diagnosed and creeping towards better health. I work to stay positive most of the time, but I also let my feelings happen. This stinks, no question about it. To grin through it and pretend otherwise seems frivolous to me. So, I say good for you for expressing yourself! Couldn't have said it better.
I have Lyme; it doesn't have me.