That chimp story sounds really disturbing; a Jeffrey Dahmer kind of catastrophically disturbing. Terrible things happen in this world. For years I transcribed murder interrogation tapes, and the things I heard would chill most anybody's soul. My initial response to understanding the nuances of the awful things people were capable of, and how absolutely ordinary the people who were committing these acts looked, and that they often had jobs and families and lived unobtrusively in our communities was to become obsessively overcautious. By projecting disaster into our future, I was limiting my and my children's ability to fully live our lives. I had to learn to transform that caution borne of fear into a caution borne of wisdom. I learned how to keep myself and my family safe. We all exercised reasonable vigilance, we learned how to protect ourselves and how to respond to emergencies. That armed us as well as possible to minimize our risk; the small element of chance (wrong place, wrong time) is one we all live with whether we know it or not. Having done everything we could to keep ourselves safe, and accepting the unchangeable risk, we were then able to live normally. That's the approach I strive to apply with regard to Lyme.
I don't know anything about this chimp story, and I've never heard that bartonella can cause insanity, but having been diagnosed recently with Lyme, babesia, and two strains of bartonella, I am understandably concerned. I've just got to think that the vast majority of people with bartonella are cured, or at least respond to treatment well enough that they don't end up losing their minds. This aligns with other things I've read that many more people than the CDC has confirmed are victims of lyme and co-infections; that it is an epidemic. I haven't seen any articles about a marked upswing in insanity cases that would be a natural consequence of increased infection statistics if bartonella caused insanity with any regularity. I can tell you one thing, and this is just the way I'm choosing to process this - I am not going to expedite mental deterioration by projecting it into my future. Like others on this site, I'm full of bacteria, toxins, and medications (and probably a litany of viruses, parasites, protozoa, etc.) Like others on this site, my hormones and regulatory systems are out of whack. It's understandable that this would cause not only physical symptoms, but mental ones as well. So, I'm doing everything I can to fight this disease, I'm doing everything I can to make my life tolerable while fighting the disease, and I'm accepting the risk, however small, that success is not guaranteed. With all of this in mind, I'm doing my best to live normally and to achieve peace of mind.
I have Lyme; it doesn't have me.
Post Edited (Willowrose) : 11/12/2009 12:20:22 PM (GMT-7)