CajunGrl, I totally feel for you and what you are saying. While in the grips of a serious, chronic disease, and ESP a disease that CAUSES depression, positive thinking is impossible. Negative thinking is a huge part of this disease, and I do believe it is caused in the brain.
Still, what I caught in your post was 'SPEAKING positive is very hard to do.' Yeah, it can be difficult to imposssible to try to bring yourself up, and/or believe what you need to belive. But still, you CAN SAY it. Even if you don't believe it. Just SAY it, and do it over and over, several times per day. Esp if you can do it in front of a mirrior. Affirmations.
NO, I cannot vouch for this success because I haven't put forth the energy required. (it DID help me once in the past, tho) But I believe it. So, altho it is very difficult for those w/ chronic illness/disease to believe what they are saying (affirmations), I do believe that your body listens to what we tell it -- right or wrong, positive or negative, etc.
CajunGrl, this in NO WAY is intended to say that you SHOULD be able to do this, or that, if you could, you would succeed. Practically NO ONE has been able to positively affect their afflictions. But some have.
Still, THIS seems to be universally applicable: If you repeat outloud and/or inside yourself ,very negative thoughts and beliefs, you can just about rest assured that you will continue to suffer w/ them.
I'm sorry , I have to go now. I just wanna know if it made sence to anyone?
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