I swear to God I was not looking for this -- I happened upon it while doing searches on Dr. Burr and Bartonella, wanting to learn if my abx would treat Bart, if I have it.
As some of you know, I have been posting recently about the 'parties' in my feet. Feels like something is bumping around in them, and yeah, it might be compared to something creeping and crawling around in them.
As you also know, I've been looking at this in relation to bad spider veins, varicose veins and squiggly things that look like veins -- some purple, some red, some blue -- they go down into my feet. One ankle is almost solid purple on one side. When I look closely, I see that these are not at all like spider veins (which I have a lot of) -- I do not know how to describe them. (next weekend, I'll get my daughter in law to photo them).
I have pretty bad spider veins all over my legs, but what is so fishy, now that I think of it, NONE of them have worsened, spread, and gotten grosser like what is going down my ankles into my feet.
I have NEVER thought of my problem as varicose veins and I didn't ever think they looked like varicose veins. I don't really examine every little thing that carefully, you know. I have only admitted to 'varicose' veins since I saw my new Dr last week. I had a note to ask him to please look at my ankles and he did. He only remarked, 'you mean your varicose veins?' And I said, yeah, I guess, but that the squiggles and marks all over my ankles going down into my feet are just getting worse by the minute. And I showed him the red sores all over my legs and he just asked if they had only occurred since my tick bite and I said yes.
Up til a few days ago, the crawling, bumping around sensations were not that frequent and noticable only at times, so I never mentioned this to the Dr. These past few days, it has been constant. And it seems like what I thought were veins are raising higher and higher.
So NOW I happened upon freaking Morgellon's disease and this looks and sounds exactly like what I have, except I have not pulled any freaking fibers out of anything and I do not ever intend to! The ridges and the bumps I am seeing UPON CLOSE EXAMINATION are NOT varicose veins -- they look more like the 'tunnels' and lumps I've seen in some photos. IT IS SO GROSS!
My sores are not near as bad as the photos I've looked at, still, they are getting worse. My toes are all red.
Upon looking this up, then I see this crap is more mysterious than Lyme -- some believe it is delusional-- my God, what is going on??
I'm sorry, I'm freaking out right now. They don't even know what this is. But so far everything I have looked at has mentioned it as possibly accompanying Lyme, babesia, or bartonella. They don't know the link. It also causes profound fatigue, cognitive issues, and other TBI symptoms.
DOES ANYBODY KNOW ANYTHING about THIS? I am freaking out, because it does, in fact, feel like there is something alive in my feet and it has started moving upwards, slowly. I thought it was funny til now -- now I wonder what in God's name is in there??
I don't know when I'll be back here, have to get myself together for work tomorrow. I don't know how else to describe it.
I am so sorry, I know that most of you are dealing w/ much worse issues and this doesn't hurt, but is scaring me -- ESPECIALLY since so many believe this is made up by hypochondriacs. I FEEL LIKE A FREAKING FREAK! I AM a freak! No one will ever believe this!!
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