I just had my third Lyme test come back negative with no co-infections. My LLMD is of course still treating me on symptoms for Lyme.
I often get disgusted with this whole Lyme thing----having bad days and then suddenly good days......all the antibiotics.....never testing postive.....tired one day....a headache the next.....elbows hurt and then they are 100% fine.
And there's the ever present feeling of just not being the self I was a year ago---- like something has been stolen from me.
I get very depressed and when that happens I start believing I have something else wrong with me--that it's not Lyme at all.
Then I look at the progress I've made and go back to Lyme. I'm on a treadmill I can't get off of.
Even talking about Lyme is a complete downer....so tired of being asked how I feel.
I just want this to go away!!!! Don't we all. Okay, I'm being a big baby at the moment. Just soooooooo SICK of Lyme !!!
But the fight must go on!
I also just had a HUGE bunch of blood tests done (again) for everything that can be checked. Came back normal, perfect, and more perfect. I should at least be very thankful for that.
Now I forgot why I wrote this post...and I also couldn't pay for something properly at the store today. The money made no sense to me. Really bad brain moment !!!!
Twenty minutes later I had to go to a business meeting......and was brilliant.
I guess Lyme IS like a box of chocolates. You just never know what you're going to get, moment to moment, day to day. A tragic comedy.
I'm burned out too.