Hi all, i just had a thought. over the last week i have been reading the posts on this site and have not decided yet if i will start the hunt for lld again. 2 years i have rested, yoga, meditated, relaxed, and accepted my limitations. until now i have been good. by good i mean, happy at peace with being out of suicidal pain and have the ability to enjoy my family and some hobbies. even though i have to rest every couple of hours and spend 70% of my time in bed. i feel better because i letgo of all the stress and aggrivation that i lived on a daily basis while searching for a lld and a cure. I just realized something very important and i would like some opinions please. i have been more stressed out this one week that i have been in years. questioning, searching, hoping to find an lld so i will not go blind. BUT....here is my choice.yes it is the only one. i can keep searching, stressing, hoping, exhausting my limited time out of bed on looking for an lld. meanwhile my body and lyme symptoms get worse, pain gets worse, brain gets worse from lack of rest and overstress OR i can do what i have done for 2 years and relax,yoga, breath accept my limitations and allow my body to be shared with bugs that stay asleep in my nervous system as long as i dont keep pissing them off. it seems to me that the path to stress and the endless search for lld will make my health worse..much much worse much faster than the second option i mentioned. what do you think???