I had an appointment with my LLND last week and finally brought up the problems I've had with depression, anxiety, mood swings. I've briefly mentioned depression to her before, but to be honest, for a LONG time it didn't even occur to me that I didn't have to be so unhappy, so I didn't even bother to mention it. I thought it was par for the course.
Anyway...I LOVE my LLND. She told me it was unacceptable for her for me to either be in extreme physical or emotional pain during treatment. With my previous doctor I just sucked it up and pushed forward...it is SUCH a relief to not have to, and it makes dealing with treatment and my symptoms so much easier!
Anyway, she gave me a natural supplement that deals with anxiety (fast-acting) and will help with depression, but takes 3 weeks for that part to kick in. She is an ND so she can't prescribe SSRIs, but if this wasn't enough she was going to liase with my GP. (I have NOTHING against SSRIs, I just am more comfortable talking to my LLND than GP, and she uses natural supplements for this).
I wasn't sure it would work- I tried a homeopathy a while ago that didn't work (although this new thing isn't a homeopathy).
Anyway, it is like a breath of fresh air. I don't think I realized just how much my constant buzz of anxiety was affecting me. It is almost completely gone. I don't freak out when I run into problems or stress. My mood is way more stable. I still have occasional random crying spells, but without the huge swoops and dips in mood, and without the anxiety it is SO MUCH MORE BEARABLE.
I wish I'd done this months ago, but that is a secondary thing. Really, I am just over the moon at the difference in the last couple days! And I have more energy too, because I am not wasting it on anxiety and stress.
Between this and the B12 I almost feel like work might be manageable in the next couple months!