I have been going through a lot recently. I fell severely ill on April 1. All of my body hurt so much and I had flu like symptoms. Sore throat, headaches at the back of my head, pain behind my eyes, abdominal pain, joint pains, pain in groin area, pain behind my neck, also many other symptoms. I couldn't get out of bed for a good 20 days after it started. Now I feel so fatigued and depressed that I don't even want to get out of bed. I went to see my doctor many times. CBC test came out normal, CT scan of my head came back normal as well, mono tests came out negative. I have to get my STD tests back, because I have been paranoid while searching for the reasons why I am sick and I stumbled across HIV and Mono so I have been really scared and depressed ever since I fell sick. Recently I don't have the other symptoms but I do have headaches behind my head and neck area and sometimes pain behind my eyes and even if I drink a sip of water I feel bloated! I have been having this insane tingling and burning sensation in my fingers and feet and the joint pains as well.
For the most part I have been forgetting a lot lately, more like a short term memory loss. And I often make spelling mistakes in my sentences. My conscious level has also dropped a bit and my vision has been blurry at times. I also noticed pain in the left side of my chest, more like a pain around the heart area and I also have pain in my ribcage around the same area. My doctor thinks it could be fibromyalgia, but I doubt it. Also I have been having rashes a few on my face, and few on my my wrist and arms. I had this weird type of on my back but it has also gone away now all the rashes came in when I fell ill. Now I get a few rashes that are sort of like red bumps. I have one on my neck right now.
I saw some posts about
Lyme disease while searching for what could have caused my illness. And it sort of adds up because I noticed little bugs lately I have seen 3-4 of them. And when I was sick in April I noticed a itch at the back of my neck so I rubbed it and I noticed something was there but It fell off whatever it was. So those bugs look liked nymph ticks of some sort. I found one and took it to my doctor, she didn't know what it was. And said its nothing. If I find it again I'm going to post a picture over here so any of you guys can identify it for me ><!
Now with my personal life =(. I had a long distance relationship with a girl. She hacked into my computer with her ex and saw all my searched history for illnesses. Now she doesn't even want to be my friend. She thinks I have HIV. So I have been really sad and thoughts of suicide cross my mind but I am not that type of a guy, just its too painful to handle. I have never been so sick or depressed. I just wanted her to be there so I could talk to her even if it was just friendship because I feel so lonely now.
I'm a 20 year old male and I go to college. I had a summer class but I couldn't attend because I am too fatigued and in pain with headaches all the time. So I dropped that class. I feel really really sad that I had to come here and ask for some advice because I doubt there is a good Lyme specialist where I live ( Winnipeg, Manitoba). My parents are often busy with work so I don't talk to them often.
Sorry for taking all of your precious time, I just feel so helpless and tired all the time =(.
Post Edited (lWinterstorml) : 5/24/2012 7:19:57 AM (GMT-6)