Please know that you are not alone in your battle with this illness. There are many, great supportive people on this forum that understand exactly what you are going through.
I too have been very sick for 6 months. I have a mental breakdown every morning to my husband, because I feel so awful and cannot go to work and be the active person I once was. It affects you on every level. I am older than you, but feel your isolation and fears. It takes a toll being this sick for a long time, and like you I don't feel like many people in our life understand what we are really going through. I think a lot of it is fear, or selfishness. Sometimes all I want someone to do is give me a hug, or tell me it's going to be okay, that I am strong and will get through this. I don't want pity, just support.
You are going to be okay sweetheart. You are young, and will heal. It might not be as fast as you would like, but you will get there. And you will be so much stronger.
I am praying for you, also for your Mom citygirl, and all of us affected by Lyme.
We will get through this, one day at a time