I went through this and it is very difficult. I felt very lost and confused and in my case the depression got severe fast. I did stop treatment even though I know it's not recommended. Then I bought an infrared sauna and worked to clean and detox and learn about
I'm now working with a Naturapath and have just started herbal treatment. I'm pretty sure I'll herx badly again, but hopefully this time I'm prepared.
You are not alone and you are the only one that can decide what is right for you. Another one of my friends stuck it out with the abx and after 2 years is much better now.
I think they want you to take the Igenix testing which is very good. My first LLMD had me take abx before the test to stir things up, I came back positive which is not really common.