I have been obsessing about
if I have bartonella or not, similarly to how I worried about
if I had lyme or not for months before I realized I did.
I think I have it.
I was just researching it online and thenproceeded to look closely over my skin for any type of rash and sadly I do have a weird rash. NOt so much the stretch marks but on my outer upper arms I have these little pink bumps that look similar to this
and I do have a few small scratches but that is hard ot determine as I scratch my back a lot and my husband scratches it for me.
But seeing those little pink marks freaked me right out. I am so bummed.
I figured my good doctor suspecting it was proof enough but I was hoping it wasn't true. I guess the reaction I had to the rifampin also showed me I have it.
So it is now about a week past when my doctor suggested I start rifampin. And about 9 days till I see my doctor.
what do I do now?
I am sad and afraid. This also explains my continued anxiety.
As I said, I have a little kid and am scared if I go back on the rifampin I will not be able to function! I have a few valium which can help. I think I have to call my doctor's office again tomorrow and schedule a phone consult with him or the other doctor, not the nurse, who really know.
So if I try the rifampin again-- how long do I expect to have the flares? constantly or occasionally?
I have read many accounts online of people having an increase in bartonella symptoms on rifampin but then over a month or so they really clear up. My doc had said 4-6 weeks on the rifampin so in a way I just want ot get on it and get it over with sooner than later. Perhaps my doctor can prescribe me a sedative to help me cope with the increased anxiety sp I can function and parent while I am treating it?
I am glad I have a good doctor who knows about this stuff and can help me but oh man I am so bummed to realize I have bartonella. ugh. That's what those bumps must be, right? I never had them before.or never noticed them.