I know this is an old thread but this is exactly what I go through ALL THE TIME! I'm either crying/emotional and depressed, or hateful and angry. Being around people is overstimulating and exhausting, but being alone with my thoughts is not enjoyable at all. I feel like I'm having a nervous breakdown. I just want to be happy again.
I completely understand. I don't have the hateful and angry stuff going on, but I can be brought to tears for no reason at all. I work in a university and there is nothing that makes an 19 year old male more uncomfortable than meeting with a 52 year old woman that starts crying for no reason. I just explain that I am going through some physical stuff that effects my emotions and I am not really sad. Most are understanding, but a few just want to get the heck away from me!
Heck, I just want to get away from me too!Omg, Sissy, you just made me laugh! Mostly because my coworkers are the same way! I have to explain that they didn't make me cry and I'm crying for no reason lol I definitely need my hormones/adrenals checked: for the first two weeks of my cycle, I'm sad, depressed, nostalgic, and sappy. The last two weeks, I'm just so angry (about
things that happened YEARS ago) and irritable. I don't know how much longer I can go on like this without having a complete mental breakdown (or being a recluse). Nothing seems to help. I can work through anxiety for the most part, and the depression too. The crying? Nope, no solutions. The anger? No clue what will help that permanently (it just keeps appearing out of nowhere).
I am glad I made you laugh for at least a moment!
I had a hysterectomy several years ago and I am also in hormone hell! I am currently off all hormones and I probably need some, but my doctor doesn't want too many changes going on right now.
I am getting better and better at taking my thoughts captive and analyzing if they are worth my time or not. Before Lyme nothing really rattled me. UGH! I am only 1 month into treatment, but must say I do see a tiny bit of improvement.
I have a nice imaginary flowing stream that goes everywhere with me. If a thought comes up that I can't get rid of, I pick a leaf from an imaginary tree, put the thought on the leaf, and send it down the stream. Sometimes it works.