I feel really bad for you that you are going through this. I have known other people who had a difficult time stopping antibiotics and what they did was mix herbs (or botanicals) with antibiotics to wean off the abx.
I know I keep quoting Dr. Jernigan but that's because it's his articles that I have read and make sense to me. He wrote this from the article below:
"Some people only feel good if they are taking the antibiotics. This is possibly due to the fact that some antibiotics work by impeding the growth of bacteria without actually killing them. Again we see an unacceptable solution, since this leads to years of dependency upon antibiotics. This is justified by some, due to the relief the treatment provides, even though it is but again simply a drug-induced illusion of health.
As mentioned in 'Lyme Toxins: the Primary Cause of Your Symptoms,' (Townsend Letter, April 2007), certain classes of antibiotics can activate bacteriophages, viruses. An astonishing new finding was released by John Travis in Science News (July 2003;164).
Travis reported that research performed by John F. Prescott found that certain antibiotics, such as the fluoroquinolones, the class of antibiotics that includes the name-brands and generic brands of Levaquin™, Cipro™, Tequin™, and Avelox™, actually are known to trigger a type of virus called bacteriophages (viruses that can infect bacteria), to change the genetic sequencing of the bacteria, causing the bacterium they have infected to start producing toxins.
These viruses can act as genetic delivery vans, invading bacteria, such as spirochetes, and often lying dormant until activated by a change in the host (your body) environment. Once activated, these viruses insert their toxin-generating genes into the bacterial chromosomes. These viruses can turn basically harmless bacterium into killers through this genetic sequencing of toxins (Travis 2003).
So now we see that not only are these toxins released through the die-off of bacteria, and not only can antibiotics actually increase the production of the toxins, but these viruses can cause the bacteria to rupture spilling their toxins into the body (Waldor 2004). Other antibiotic classes need to be studied in this same manner to verify their safety."www.townsendletter.com/April2007/antibioticlyme0407.htm
Maybe if you know what's going on inside your body it may help, I don't know...
Best to you,
Totally healed for 8 years ~ used Dr. Jernigan's protocol from his book "Beating Lyme Disease"
Our bodies are wise as they can heal themselves with some help plus detoxing daily, eating healthy. I come back to help others for others helped me when I was sick. Pay it forward!