Sayyadina, I too struggle with this. I HATE all the money that is being spent on my health. If I lived alone, I likely would really struggle with it, but I fortunately have a husband and children that push me to do it - and a few good friends.
I've struggled with this since I was a child, so it's nothing new, but now I'm reaching new heights with my spending money on my medical - it's not just Lyme & company now, it's Addison's, thyroid and very major dental work (will need bone grafts). I struggle with this several times a week - and it's not easy to not go into a severe depression when I allow those feelings to take hold of me, so I avoid thinking about
it unless it's truly necessary.
I direct most of my own medical care (hubby just watches over me to be there when/if I can't again), and direct my own Lyme treatment, so I have to evaluate prices and all of that on my own. Hubby really cringed when I told him the cost of the herbs I would need - it wasn't easy to fit that into our budget because we survive only on his disability and pension.
But - here's what I've had to come to terms with.
Fact: I am not worth any less than any other human on this earth - and neither are you.
Fact: I will suffer and will only cost more money to those that I love if I don't take care of myself and heal - you too, my friend.
Fact: Those animals won't get any better care from the next person in line to care for them - it's up to you to be there for them -at least for now. Life has a way of changing things around, so we never know what's in store for us.
And Fact - based on the above things, it only makes sense for you to spend a bit more than you are comfortable with right now and heal, than to wait until you get worse, and then expenses will really climb.
Sorry to be such a downer, but when you are reaching the bottom of the barrel like that, you have to see things clearly.
Please email me if you wish to talk. I can completely understand as I struggle with the same things - only I got too sick to even have the critters around, so they are no longer here for me to use to push myself to heal. This is no longer a sinking boat for me though - I've patched the holes (getting effective treatments) and I'm going to make it now. You need to too.
Herb only treatment for Lyme & Bart ended 12/11 - no active symptoms -Herb only treatment for Babesia ended 12/12 - no active symptoms
Healed from tick-borne infections, now healing from the damage they left behind.www.healingwell.com/community/default.aspx?f=30&m=2977364
Had Lyme, Bart, Babs, RMSF, Ehrlichia, Myco, Anaplasmosis, EBV
Back in treatment for new Lyme case 8/2014