Posted 12/20/2014 2:17 PM (GMT -6)
You learn to ignore the symptoms over time and hope that "this" time it is nothing serious. I have also learned that fear heightens your symptoms and slows/prevents healing. Specially us Lymies who already suffer from weakened and impacted adrenals, immune systems, and endocrine systems. Fear causes anxiety, taxes your body and worsens everything.
Early on in my illness I was worried about every little symptom. Now? nope, not so much. I have spent so many days and nights knowing for sure that that day or night was going to be my last. So after a while, you say "heck with it, if I'm dying today, so be it" then you ignore what is making you feel like you are gonna die and next thing you know, it goes away.
And the fear of death? I know that one day I am going to die, we all do. Will it be today, tomorrow or maybe 50 years from now? only God knows. Until then I am making the best of the days I have left and not worry so much about my illness. I didn't ask for this illness so if I am stuck with it, then there is nothing that I can do so "live on".
People new to Lyme have it the hardest because they worry about every symptom, have so many questions, and their emotional state is in chaos. They are so full of worry. Those who have dealt with it for a while seem to be more concerned about others than themselves and share their knowledge and experience with others to try to make them feel better. They understand what it is like to not know what is going on and try to help and easy their concerns. is this because we have it under control or because we understand it better? I don't know...maybe both?