I hope everyone's having a great Friday! One of my most difficult challenges in dealing with my Lyme and Bart is the fact that I can't really face the reality of everything, or come to accept it for what it is. Some days, I accept that these are my cards that I'm delt and I have to move forward, but most days, I live in the past, wishing I didn't have Lyme and Bart, wishing I got my Tourette's under control years ago, wishing I did not have the shoulder injuries and hip/back injuries I had; thinking if I didn't have the injuries, and only the Lyme and Bart (only being a big understatement), at least I would be able to hopefully treat that and be fine. Now I think, well, on top of the Lyme and Bart, I have to treat the musculoskeletal issues, GI issues, and other problems. I know the majority of us here have multiple issues, not just lyme and other co-infections.
My question is- how does everyone cope with their illness? For the veterans who are healed or are currently doing much better, what strategies have you used to come to grips with your illness? Have you had really bad days/weeks/even months, where you think this is never going to get better? Have you wished everything was different and you could have done so many things differently? I know I'm wasting my mental/emotional energy on things I cannot change now instead of using it on positive things like healing, learning from all of this and moving forward in my life. My mind has grown so used to living in the past that it's become a terrible way of living.