Yes, I understand.This happens to me ,too.Sometimes , I don't know where I'm coming, or going. It's made me realize that they are more serious issues than death.I just want this over with, one way, or the other.I feel so bad some days I wonder if it's worth it.
It's just the disease messing with you.I try to keep myself in check, and double think when I'm in a bad mood to keep from over reacting even when I know I'm right, and the other person is wrong.I just let it slide by.
An example. the other day I was at a Lotto machine to get a quick pick.Evidently, this woman put her money in first, and then when over to leisurely fill out her Lotto tickets at a table.I was putting my dollar in the machine that no one is at, and she starts screaming at me.So, i say can I give you a dollar, or put it in the machine,all I want is a quick pick, and you'll still have the same amount of money on the machine.She said, absolutely not.
She took ten minutes filling out those slips., and the the machine wouldn't accept them because they weren't filled out correctly.
That took another 5 minutes to correct.
Now, I've got a hot temper when I know I'm being done wrong,
and can start screaming with the best of them. But, I held myself in check, and watched in amazement at this woman's way of thinking.I even wished her luck when she left.I figured anybody that stupid, and inconsiderate surely needs it.
Plus, I'm not sure of the outcome if I started saying what I was really thinking about
the situation.I'm a pretty nice, and polite guy until someone provokes me.It was one of my bad mood days.
But don't give up, it's always darkest before the dawn.Hang in there.The real researchers might come up with a cure soon.
Mainstream practitioners are a joke, IMO.They don't know how to cure it , so therefore, it's not really there.
After all, most MD's have a god complex, and are never wrong in their opinion.It's the patient that's wrong.
So, if they don't understand it, it obviously doesn't exist.
I hope you get better soon...
Post Edited (BrokenAldo) : 7/3/2015 5:27:50 PM (GMT-6)