I have found myself re-experiencing PTSD with the very physical reactions when dealing with my FIL when he lived with us during his last months (it allowed me to see that I had severe dementia while I was at my most ill point too), and any time I help those that are super ill too - like IHL. I have to admit that there have been a few times that I have read things and it sends me into this downward spiral of fear, on the verge of a panic attack, and not being able to sit still. I call it the heebee jeebees, as no one around me would understand even if I did explain it.
I'm like BorderLyme - I don't think I could walk into a head doc's place knowing that I would need to talk about
it. It's really too much to talk about
in detail - besides, it's not like I'd be believed - not here in Arkansas. We don't even have a LLMD in our state! There's no way any head doc would ever admit that what I experienced is real, and that would land me in jail - because I know that I would not respond kindly to someone that I had just
opened up to with those things and they even hinted at not believing it.
It's easier to just make some jokes about
it, and insist that improving the lives of those infected with these diseases has become my life's passion - because it has. No one deserves this. We are NOT soldiers in battle, yet we have PTSD from our experiences. It just makes me very, very angry that we aren't believed.
Herb only treatment for Lyme & Bart ended 12/11 - no active symptoms for 2 yrs -Herb only treatment for Babesia ended 12/12www.healingwell.com/community/default.aspx?f=30&m=2977364
Had Lyme, Bart, Babs, RMSF, Ehrlichia, Myco, Anaplasmosis, EBV
New Lyme case 8/2014 - Healed 1/31/15
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