Posted 8/27/2015 1:07 AM (GMT -7)
I've heard/read somewhere that traumatic events can pull people out of remission, or just bring about new symptoms/cause an increase of already existing. Maybe the bad trip managed to do that for you? That, or maybe the LSD itself had an effect on the bacteria? Who knows?
Could the OCD be due to Lyme, Bart, any of what you've speculated? Yeah, probably. I mean, the crap affects the mind in so many ways - it'd come as no surprise if some suffered OCD because of it. Me, I got a bit of it myself, but I had it before I got sick honestly.
Also, you said that it took two years for the Lyme to actually kick in, but it could have been there all along. I mean, people's symptoms are all over the place. Maybe that's just how the bugs you're dealing with wanted to present themselves at the time?
For the first couple years of my being sick, the symptoms were mild, mostly mental, yet slowly ramping up. Then, the physical stuff came in.
That aspect of your poor health could just be the aftereffects of the drug screwing with your mind. I've met quite a few people who've gotten pretty messed up from stuff. Actually, a friend's brother took too many hits of acid, and now he's changed for life. Pretty sad.
But, I mean, apart from the terrible OCD, you're still here, you're aware of your situation - he's not, not really, so, as hard as it may be, and it is, I know, you can try something. Try, at least. Exhaust your options. That's what I'm doing, that's what we're all doing. Struggling.. to survive, to live.
Try for some testing. Treat, if you're not already. As for the OCD, anxiety, all that, whether it's caused by infections, what have you, though you can't help it entirely - I couldn't - and I wouldn't advise that you stopped completely, 'cause it's a problem for you, and it needs dealing with, not neglect, but thinking about it all the time, taking pictures day in and day out, that's not helping either.
Maybe you should try for that xanax again? I'd check to see what, if any, effects the use of such drugs would have for someone trying to heal (i.e., immune suppression or whatever), but, if the stuff can help with some of your symptoms while trying to heal, that's great.
Honestly, I'm pretty sure there's quite a few people on here who take/have taken anti-anxiety stuff, so it might not be an issue. Try to get them, if you can.
But, yeah, try. Once you've tried everything, and, pray not, if nothing's worked, well.. least you tried.
Anyway, I really wish I had the answers for you, good answers, even if only a few. I wish I could offer some comfort. I'm sorry. This stuff sucks, I know.
Someone else should be along eventually to help you out a bit more though, so stick around.
Sorry if my post is a mess also. I'm kind of just hanging from a star on the edge of the galaxy. Might drift out any day now.
Best wishes though.
No friends, no family to speak of. Just me and my lonely out here. But, so be it.