I knew that this disease had/has taken over my life, but until now I didn't realize the extent of its destruction. I was forced to leave my high school and I find out now, that after I left, my former best friend got increasingly worse in her mental health. I was unable to be there for her and now it is too late. My best friend, who I lost a few years ago, tragically killed herself two days ago. I am heart broken and in so much pain. I know that I could not have stopped this from happening, but I wish now, more than ever, that I could have been there for her, by her side, every step of the way. I miss her so much. I am more determined now to get better, but at the same time it is incredibly difficult to fight your own fight in the midst of mourning. I have never had a friend as good as her. Circumstances tore us apart and I am devastated. Please pray for her, her family, and all of the lives that she has touched. I know this isn't directly Lyme related, but I need support now more than ever. Tell your friends you love them and fight for every relationship you have. 20 years old is too young to die and I never expected to lose a friend at such a young age.