Posted 5/27/2016 8:08 PM (GMT -6)
I know, I said no bad news, but.. bad news, guys! Those buttholes didn't have either of the rides that I wanted to go on! I had to settle for the scrambler. What's worse, at least in her opinion, is that they didn't even have any funnel cakes that my grandma sent me on a mission to get.
No spinny swings, no tilt-a-whirl, and no funnel cakes. That's just not right. This is America, isn't it?
Still, it was fun, lots of nostalgia. Besides, the "good" carnival comes to town on the 4th of July, so I'll have my swings yet.
Anyway.. my real treat for the day, coming to back find so many wonderful responses, pieces of your lives shared.
Girlie - I'm jealous. I imagine the city and scenery were beautiful, and all of those animals are cuties. Though, I've heard that kangaroos can get a little pushy. I feel like I'd wanna go up and hug one, which probably wouldn't turn out so well. An alpaca though. Heck yes!
Trav - :).. thanks, and your time away was well deserved. I wish it wouldn't have taken its toll on you, but at least you managed to enjoy yourself with the family. As for the recovery, we'll make it yet.
Pete - I'm ready to retire now! Ugh! I'm just getting started though. But, soon enough, I hope! Life goes by like that. I know the feeling btw. There have been days, the weather's nice, with clear, bright, blue skies, or nights where the clouds drape the moon just right.. despite all my troubles, I realize how lucky I am to be able to witness such things. I wonder if this is what other people go through as they age..? Healthy, "normal" folk. Appreciation for the things some others just pass by. I guess it just takes a certain frame of mind though. Admittedly, some days, I'll just be like.. oh.. a sky, oh.. a sunset. I get what you mean though. We are so small, such little presence in the world. Here today, gone tomorrow. Hard to believe I'll be a quarter century old this January. Is why I'm just doing my best to be something, somehow. Be happy. So little time.
Krimpet, that is big, you said so yourself. There was a time, a couple years ago, where I didn't even leave the house.. ever. Weeks, months would go by. Then, I went to the store for my grandma one day. My sister was shocked. Like, Ton goes to the store? I do tons of regular people stuff now. Can't say it is because I have gotten much better, just that I force myself to override that part of being sick that makes you wanna curl up in your room and never come out. I know those feels, my friend. Push for the treatment that is gonna give you whatever it is inside that you need to feel like a regular person again, but at least try to put on an act in the meantime. It helps. You can't think right, can't talk right, you beat yourself up, but do it anyway, telling yourself, hey, I'm working on it. I don't know, I deal with this a lot. What is gonna alleviate is adequate treatment and eradication of the infections, but that is gonna take time, and I am tired of losing time to Lyme, which is why I have been really putting effort into trying to improve my life in more areas than just health. Hoping it doesn't backfire. Keep taking those baby steps though.. baby steps in your brand new shoes!
Denikeef - thank you, your contribution is appreciated. It reminds me of things that I did with my grandmother growing up, making Christmas cookies or tamales during the holidays. I used to have the recipes memorized! We made a Looney Tunes quilt together once as well. Your hubby is right, like I said, memories made. Some of these things will last forever, or at least lifetimes. I wish she could crochet though, I need a homemade cardigan (or is that knitting).
But, anyway, my real treat for the day was coming back to find such wonderful responses, pieces of your lives shared. Nothing I've been able to say in return has felt good enough. Though, maybe just providing the opportunity to share and be heard is sufficient? I think so. I might refrain from responding much in the future.
Like, sort of a you talk, everyone else listens sort of thing. A monthly post filled with everyone's little happy thoughts, feelings, experiences, etc. Yeah.
We'll find a nice formula.
Again, thanks for coming by, everyone! I am grateful for your company.
scrape myself off the pavement ten thousand times over