Wow, just read my post from 2 years ago. I was 6 months into lyme and obviously angry haha.
nobody here expects he will be stuck on this forum for years.
We have some energy to spend, some ideas to hold to. When they are gone we find new ideas. When those are gone and we are still on the same forum, still sick, some sort of apathy takes hold.
This is why many people don't even post. I can see them online, some veteran members, reading (footer of forum page). But not posting anything. They are not posting not because they are healthy. They are not posting because they had enough of posting. 5 years of healingwell and 20000 posts is quite enough for anybody...Makes a lot of sense.
I will never leave this forum, personally. I want to help people on here. I want to learn and research things with other lymies on here.
Even when I have a long symptom free stretch of life I remember to come on here because (for me personally), it feels "wrong" to just come on here when I'm in deep need and then forget about
this place when I'm feeling great. When I'm feeling great someone one else might be in a bad stretch and need my/our assistance and support.
I'll be here as long it exists.
And two years from now I'll read this post and laugh because of the paradoxical nature of it. It will be like looking into a mirror, looking into a mirror,....looking into a mirror (infinite regress).I've been feeling a lot of things lately. This seems like the right place to voice some of those feelings. Mpost:
In response to what you said, I'm sorry. I'm sorry for the discouragement, lack of resolution, and ongoing trials you're facing. I'm glad you said what you did. I wondered why you seem angry and harsh in some of your posts. I understand better now, and I'm truly sorry.
In case some of those burned out folks see this, I'm going to tell how I feel. I've noticed over the past few months that quite a few long time members have dropped off. Some of them are the more science-minded folks.
Personally, I find that very discouraging. I joined this forum because I felt the members here were well-informed, knowledgeable, and encouraging. I need the smarter, more scientific folks. I depend on them to provide what I and others lack and to help keep us from spinning wheels and chasing fruitless rabbit trails. Without them, I feel defenseless in some way.
Furthermore, I'm concerned about
the countless posts by multiple members that sound like they've joined other groups that I personally wouldn't want to be a part of. The tone is angry, vengeful, arrogant, superior, and talking down to other people. They profess "science" and "justice," but IMO it's theories and ideas tauted as absolute fact. Their so-called justice sounds more like militant vengeance to me. Beware of the company you keep, for they will surely influence your way of thinking and your attitudes. Don't fall into a snare.dacarte
Thank you for such a heartfelt post. I appreciate you. That's amazing you still feel that way after 2 years. I don't know how I will feel about
all this 2 years from now, but I hope I will follow your lead. Thank you again.