I had a transcendent experience with a taco bell burrito today. If they sold beer, I may have washed down a flagyl with it, just for spite.
Well, at least the flagyl might have prevented any diarrhea.
I tried to post a reply before, but my computer froze. Maybe that was a warning to keep my mouth shut, but I never do.
I would have to have someone knowledgeable prepare all my meals for me to eat the way I'm apparently supposed to, cold turkey. Or else go to a hypnotherapist or get really good counseling. I don't know for a fact I have a candida problem, but I probably do, inside. I definitely had to be serious about
food to rescue my poor adrenals recently. And I still am, for the most part.
I could prepare just healthy food, maybe. I can follow a recipe, though I usually don't. My problem is so many of the things I enjoy have been taken away from me, it's been easier for me to deal with what I eat on an as needed basis. If I don't feel like I'm taking something away from myself during a particular day, I can eat right. If I'm agitated or feeling sorry for myself, I can't bring myself to make the best choices. I I just try to be wary of causing an immediate crash. Little by little I've made changes that didn't really hurt. I bought grapes and then decided that was absolutely the wrong thing to eat. They ended up in the trash. I had a free pound cake given me and I thought I wanted a piece last night. With ice cream. It all tasted nasty and ended up in the trash. I don't want to go to Pizza hut anymore (but mainly because they don't carry my favorite salad dressing now). I don't drink coffee, or sugared soda. I do drink diet soda some times. I don't drink fruit juice, only vegetable juice. I probably only eat potatoes once a month. I prefer rice, but even that's supposed to be bad. Not sure about
that one. Pasta has not been removed from my menu and I know for a fact it should be.
I am mindful of avoiding fried food, and heavy sugar items but dairy(cheese) and carbs are my weaknesses. Always have been. The portion sizes I'm able to eat had already gotten way smaller the past 2 years. Sometimes I can't eat anything at all.
I know there are good trade offs for 'depriving' myself of what I think I want.
So, obviously I'm not a cheater. I'm just stubborn.