Oh Waterbed!! Somehow I missed this!! I'm so sorry.
As I read your first post, I so wanted to just zap myself over to your house so I could just hug you and hold you. I think there are many of us here that can identify with your feelings all too well. It's horrible to deal with those things.
I too had to stop working (at an early age) and home schooled my kids. Not an easy choice or easy to do, but was the best choice for me and my children.
You have been given good advice here. Just remember, when we are just barely able to fight for our survival, in a very literal way, we must only be concerned with that one thing. It doesn't mean we can be abusive or rude to others, but we must ask for the help we need and to not be sorry or embarrassed of that need. We are literally fighting for survival at times, after all.
I'm so very happy to hear that you are taking steps for yourself in not blaming yourself for just being extremely ill. Remember, you have done nothing wrong.
Hang in there. Come here for support and encouragement!
Big ((((((HUGS))))))) !!!!!!!
Herb only treatment for Lyme & Bart ended 12/11 - no active symptoms for 2 yrs -Herb only treatment for Babesia ended 12/12www.healingwell.com/community/default.aspx?f=30&m=2977364
Had Lyme, Bart, Babs, RMSF, Ehrlichia, Myco, Anaplasmosis, EBV
New Lyme case 8/2014 - Healed 1/31/15 - unknowingly had Asymptomatic Babs and Asymptomatic Bart, being treated now though (2/2016)