Need to get them under control so I can see my llmd. I have limited funds so I cant buy everything. Ive tried a bunch of antidepressants, pasque flower, theanine, valerian root, gaba. All did absolutely nothing. Thanks guys.
My bart depression and anxety are just sliding out of control. My herxing is out of control no matter what i take and how much i try to detox. My llmd is out of town for three weeks and the only other one doesnt have availability until november in my state. I dont know whats wrong with my body. People are telling me maybe its mold or mthfr but i do not have the money to test for mold or fix mold or for 23andme or for b12 supplements.
My doctor, my primary care doctor asked me if I would try a drug that he thought may help with not only the depression and panic, anxiety etc but also with all my leg pain & neuropathy in both arms and both legs. I told him to pound sand but my wife begged me and agreed that if it did NOT help, she would relent and even give me her blessing to even end my life it nothing worked. Just PLEASE try this first is all she asked.... So I took this also expensive new drug called Duloxetine. I think Cymbalta is the non generic name? God only know what THAT must cost since this generic costs me $65.00 a month with great insurance. I swear. I took it about
7PM and when I woke up I was me again. The ME who had NO fear, had to reach into the depths of my horrible memory banks of War to even feel any sadness. NO fear, NO depression, NO anger. It was like I was born brand new. So it saved my life, it gave me BACK a life that was so broken I was worse than dead.
*NOTE: I cut the entire story about
why & how I nearly committed suicide a few weeks ago OUT of this story in case the paragraph above sound "abrupt"? Bottom line is-I was and AM the nicest, most considerate, caring man alive. Until about
4 months ago when whatever Lyme or some co infection has done to me. I was borderline insane by the day I got the drug above and had sunk SO low I would not even be here if not for the medication. I do NOT believe in antidepressants. Never did. And yet here I am suggesting maybe it is the single greatest medication on Earth. Maybe because for ME, it is literally the only medication I have ever taken in my 67 year life that actually helped me? Too ashamed & embarrassed to go into what a jerk I had become from whatever disease inside of me turned me into for a few weeks....