For the record (and a bit surprised I even need to clarify?) My beginning post was MEANT to be my classic dry wit or humor. I guess some just don't know me well enough to get that. Those who do know me know that I never gave up on ANYTHING in my life or never could have made it a fraction of this far TRUST me.
I simply ran across this article and never recalled seeing it here so was just passing it along since I do NOT know of this author like Blue so thought maybe it was relevant information. Personally I was struck with immense SADNESS and overwhelming grief and the "In Memoriam" at the bottom. Having lost so MANY in my personal life form 2 of my children to the men I fought with in our Wars, and my EX....It simply was like a punch to my gut and for me, the only way to move past it and NOT let it take me down is to confront it with MY sense of humor. It seems it was not construed this way?
Another thing about
me is I don't "give up" but I DO quit wasting time, money and letting my wife kill herself trying to work herself to death to make me fight this thing when I see her back to working 12+ hour days at her office to make up time she missed at work from taking me to all these doctors etc. To pay for all the medications that have no effect I am aware of at least. And this is a decision we all have to make on our own. As so many have pointed out, we are all different and all have to find what works for US. What works for me so far has ONLY been the Home Made Sauna and the Paleo Diet. And that is simply my best guess because I felt NOTHING with any medications but got SEVERE brain fog and constant flu like symptoms and severe sweating and all day dizziness and just weird sense of being high the minute I began the daily 10 minutes in my Sauna Tent regimen. So I THINK that means it was finally finding something my bugs do not like correct?
If I was young and had life ahead of me I would fight this with guns blazing. But I am NOT, I am 68 and had more major surgeries than anyone I ever met. I live in unbearable pain, 24/7 and this is even WITH pain medications that would kill most men. Still, I have no death wish as long as I can wake up with this beautiful woman who shares my life. But if my Lyme was 100% GONE today, I would STILL be SO miserable I would find myself wishing it was over more than I should yet would battle that impulse with the survivor mentality that kept me alive through things nobody could imagine in my life. As a person who has been tortured, lost all I have lost and still has this warm heart felt big smile and lust for life, good AND bad, I am simply choosing the path that is right for ME. Please never misinterpret my choices to do or NOT do something or take or NOT take some medication or protocol as giving up. Life may kick me like it does you but trust me, I kick BACK! I am also not at all discouraged but as I see it, as I read it, NOBODY who gets Lyme Disease is ever, EVER "cured". Seeing that, let me be the old man I am and take it at my pace? I don't want to die but sure feel it is on my doorstep the past week or so. And that scares me so I must not be all that in a hurry to croak or I wouldn't worry so much. I'm sure there will be times I am dying to jump back into this or that to fight this illness but honestly, I HOPE I do not cave in and spend all that money anymore. I think I will try the LB Tonic formula protocol from Green Dragon in a few months but not sure. I want to use up all I have of my Stephen Buhner Protocol and all the tons of other assorted herbs first? I will probably go back on that in a month or 2? First I want to complete a couple more months of this detox as I explained to Traveler a few months back in December and she agreed that in MY case I should detox and do it well before diving in so deep as I did. I mean I was drinking my beer and eating like a fast food moron with NO regard to the effects. So I essentially just flushed the thousands we spent on Herbs and ALL the work making those 10,000 capsules down the drain. It never had a chance when I was feeding the illness everything it needs and loves. I was new, and I was SO stupid. I hope to do better this time and be smart. But given all I have found out, with no hope of any "cure", with the best I can ever be is a cripple in unbearable pain due to all War did to my broken, shot up body, I want to do it SMART, conservative and simply try to make myself as "comfortable" as possible till my time is up.
I think maybe I should not post anymore since I can't seem to express myself as clearly as I mean to. As I said, this brain fog is honestly NEW to me and extraordinarily frightening. I keep telling my wife Trish, I AM in here, I am just having a Hell of a time trying to get OUT....
Again, my post was a tongue & cheek ATTEMPT to DIFFUSE a title I though inflammatory and scary as Hell from the Author of that article. When I first read it and did so several times I just found myself shaking and wondering WHY am I even trying at all? So MY defense is to
open the way I did as MY way of a rebuttal. I'm really kinda shocked nobody got that. That's it for me, back to bed after another night with 1.7 hours of sleep is all AGAIN according to my Garmin.
Post Edited (Just Mike) : 4/28/2017 5:58:23 PM (GMT-6)