I've never been normal
With Lyme, I dream of the day I feel normal. I think part of the secret is to embrace your "new normal." Will I ever go back to eating the pizza buffet or camping without anxiety? Probably not. But I do look forward to being "reborn"- emerging into life again after feeling like Lyme has stolen it from me.
I felt wonderfully normal just last week, when I had a good bit of social interaction and was able to take a walk every day, and had some ambitious thoughts and productive hours. That wonderful normal also included 3 dozen pills every day, no gluten, dairy, sugar, corn, soy, and a yeast infection. It doesn't bother me when my mood is good.
Had a pretty bad morning, but found that the good thing about
being distracted every 5 minutes is that sometimes I can distract myself out of fatigue and a stomachache.
I dunno... I feel... mightier... since battling Lyme. It super sucks and my life will never be the same, but learning to roll with the punches isn't a bad thing.
Mostly, I'm thinking of myself a year ago, reading these threads and sobbing "omg I can't do this for 7 years!!!!" And I want people like me to read my posts and think, "there is a light at the end of the tunnel. And no matter how LONG the tunnel is, there are lights inside, too."