After feeling a lot better for awhile, stress knocked me for a loop! I was off work for 2 days, and could barely move. It was like all my old symptoms came back. It took lots of ibuprofen to even move. Ill explain, but please bare with me, as its still hard to talk about
. And I hope you dont mind me writing this, because it seems to help by talking.
I posted a few weeks ago that I was moving my girlfriend in. We knew each other for 7 yrs. Everything seemed perfect, as far as our feelings. She was at the time in a relationship but not happy for 3 years. She left him to be with me. The first 3 weeks were perfect! I couldnt ask for a better life. The 4th(and last) week was a disaster! I am still not sure what went wrong or why she turned into who she became. First argument, she got sick, had chest pains so I made her go to the ER. We were there all night, I was by her side through it all. Ended up being a viral infection in her lungs. The next night she stayed off work to heal, and I went to work. I tried calling her to make sure she was ok but 2 calls never went through, her cell service at my house was almost non existent.
When I got home I said honey maybe we should switch your cell service to another provider when we get the money. She flipped out! Said she had that plan for 10 yrs and only pays $35/mo and is never paying more than that, and further more she is never going on another mans plan! I told her I didnt ask her to go on my plan, just get another plan where we have service so we can talk to each other in situations like this. She then asked me why I needed to call her. I didnt, and still dont understand that comment.
Then she kept on me about
buying her tires for winter because hers werent that great and she is afraid of the snow. Not a problem, but I couldnt afford it until 1st week of November. She had a fit every day telling me we need to get these tires now, November would be too late.
I asked her if she would help prepare meals for the week for work on sunday so we could save money for the tires. So she makes two huge bowls of chicken noodle soup....and gives them to her family! I never said a word, even though I wanted to. I just bought my food for the week.
Last saturday I worked the weekend overtime so we could have extra money for the tires. I text her at work on saturday and said id like to do something, just us no one else, when I get home. She said sure. We needed alone time. When I get home, she tells me to change clothes quick we're gonna be late. I asked for what. She said she was invited last minute to go on a pumpkin walk with her family, and she accepted for us. I was a little upset, but again, never said a word. I did it for her. After the walk we went to a late nite dinner. At the diner we were talking and the subject of the phone came up. I said I didnt want to talk about
that, didnt want to get in an argument in public. She asked why. And I had enough, told her as nice as I could. I said because you got very angry the last time we talked about
her phone, and if she got that angry again im afraid she would have to pack her bags and move out. She got MAD! She said dont you threaten me!!
Next day at work I kept thinking, this has only been a month and she is a totally different person than shes been the last 7 yrs. Honestly, I didnt know what to do. But when I got home from work I told her we had to talk and told her she had to leave. I have been busting my butt at work, working all the overtime I could just to keep up with all my bills and what she wanted. All I asked in return was to be loved, and I wasnt feeling it. She left.
As soon as she left, my thyroid started swelling(I have hashimotos), I got extremely anxious, my body hurt all over. The next day I could barely move. For 2 days I was on the couch in pain. All my joints hurt, constant headache, again it seemed like all my old symptoms came back with a vengeance.
I feel better now, 6 days later, physically. Mentally ill admit to being extremely hurt. Even though I asked her to leave, I am a mess. I miss her(very odd since i asked her to leave!), I lost my best friend. And im not sure why she turned into someone I didnt know. Im afraid to go certain places because I dont want to run into her.
Thank you for letting me spill my guts to you, this is pretty hard on me, but I know ill be fine in another week or so. It truly was for the best. But I wanted to write this, not only for myself to get it off my chest, but more importantly to make sure you all know(which im sure you do) just how stress can affect us. It put me down HARD for 2 days. How it makes old symptoms come back im not sure. But wow does it ever suck!! Be aware of the signs, if things get stressful and youre not concentrating it can really hit you. Thanks again.
Post Edited (trader758) : 10/21/2017 3:17:30 PM (GMT-6)