Welcome to the community!
If you haven't yet, we do encourage all new members to read through the "New to Lyme" thread, as it has a lot of really great and helpful information contained in it.
It's really very possible that you had just enough treatment to push the bacteria out of the bloodstream enough to keep you from having a positive test this time - but the timing of your experience certainly indicates that you likely didn't have enough treatments - especially if you weren't able to extend the treatments for 2 - 3 months past the point where you had no more active symptoms.
These bacteria don't live out their lives in the bloodstream, where the immune system can get to them, and testing can reveal them - and the testing is very faulty, missing up to 50% of those that actually have the infection - not to mention the co-infections that are usually there as well. Where you tested for any co-infections?
Unfortunately, many Lyme patients do attempt suicide, or deal with suicidal thoughts. I know I did. This can be from Lyme or Bartonella (one of the co-infections that are possible), and is considered a symptom of these infections. So do be sure to include that with your list of symptoms.
Do you have a Lyme literate doctor to evaluate you again? I would suggest talking to a LLMD, or you could try starting a natural treatment on your own to see how you respond.
Let us know what other questions you may have and we will see how we can be of help!!
Herb only treatment for Lyme & Bart ended 12/11 - no active symptoms for 2 yrs -Herb only treatment for Babesia ended 12/12www.healingwell.com/community/default.aspx?f=30&m=2977364
Had Lyme, Bart, Babs, RMSF, Ehrlichia, Myco, Anaplasmosis, EBV
New set of infections 8/2014 - still treating.
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