UPDATE: Almost 6 months after my original posting, I want to include an update so that others going through the same immobilizing panic know there IS light at the end of the tunnel. It took me another month after I posted, but I came out of it, and am back on a positive track in my Lyme recovery.
That was the single worst period I have gone through, not only in my Lyme journey but in my life journey. I found my way out of it via a combination of things: getting tests to rule out the other diseases I was afraid of, temporary medication(s) to help me sleep or relax, going (for the first time ever) to a GOOD licensed therapist, listening to music, physical exercise (even when you think it's impossible), going to church (I'd never gone), reaching out to others via this forum, and help from family/friends. And understanding that panic/anxiety itself is a symptom of Lyme and coinfections. Oddly, the LEAST helpful thing was getting tested for Parkinson's, ALS and MS - you see when the tests were negative I just thought that the doctors were wrong, or it was too early to show up!! That's because I was in the throes of panic and anxiety, and had this obsessive thought about
other diseases looping in my brain 24/7 that reason couldn't touch.
Understanding what was happening to me and that it wasn't my failing, but rather a biproduct of the disease(s), really helped. Anxiety and panic are powerful things and can take down anyone - it doesn't mean you're weak or unintelligent. Getting rest, being able to sleep, getting exercise helped me to be able to focus and hear the messages and help coming to me. It was a very scary time and I'm so grateful to all those that helped me, including this forum. I just wanted to share my path back from that horrible time so that anyone going thru something similar and wandering onto my original post knows that I had a positive outcome. I continue with my LLMD, currently being treated for Bartonella and mold, managing my symptoms (which still include anxiety from time to time), strengthening my immune system, and fighting the good fight we all are