Those are my biggest symptoms when herxing from Babesia. I often feel like I’m just being lazy. But in between herxes, I get stuff done, I’m upbeat and feel normal, push myself to the limit and find that my limits are indeed short.
Depression is a very real part of this, and it is debilitating. It makes it harder to justify your illness, continue treatment, and even believe yourself that it’s not in your head.
I think your grandmother- and many working mothers, students, and go-getters- have one huge advantage to their pain - it’s not Lyme. It’s not all a mind over matter thing. The matter, with Lyme, is far worse than the stresses they are able to push through. It’s why we call it an “invisible” illness. Sometimes even WE can’t see it!
I will try to make a to-do list and just check off one thing at a time, even if I’m sobbing through it with emotional or physical pain (mostly emotional). If I manage to pick up that one thing, or just wash a freaking dish, I’ll even add it to the list so I can cross it off and show myself I have indeed done SOMETHING today! Sometimes my list sits for two weeks and only has a few checks. It’s okay. Just keep swimming.
Lyme, Babesia, Bartonella. Symptoms began 5/2016, didn't start treatment until 9/2016. Slow but steady recovery.