So tired of being tired + LLMD New york

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   Posted 5/3/2018 10:12 AM (GMT -6)   
Hi everyone!

I am pretty desperate at this point.

I ve always had headaches( not very often), I could sometimes be little depressed due life’s circumstances. But overall I was very proactice, I had my business, I ve built house at 22 for my father. I was meditating, doing yoga everyday, doing half-triathlons, having friends and living GOOD life!
But since I moved 2014 to New York its just one health bummer after another.
It started with migraines. Psychisian in Bellevue hospital has prescribed antidepressants which only made me even more depressed and anxious and socially isolated. Constant stiff neck, burning nerves in palmes and soles of feet. I have started to have fear of coming migraines and preferred stay at home most of the time. I sprained ankles on very light jogging, then my knee got knocked off. Then in 2016 I couldn’t walk for at least a week due horrible tailbone pain. My friend gave me strong medical marijuana for cancer people, and it didn’t really helped with pain. I have removed ovarians cysts last summer. 2017 was highlighted with very big stress , and 3-4 days migraines several times per month came up, with light sensitivity, nausea, vomiting. I was grinding teeth during night and my morning was like a wake up in hell, so much pain it was.
I bumped into information about Lyme 2 years ago, when got so depressed that wanted really finish that parasitic lifestyle. I felt so worthless, I thought why I am even wasting water and air if I m not giving back to earth community. Friend pushed me to go to Vipassana 10 day meditation and on the way there in the train somehow youtube reffered me to Lyme desease videos while I was watching depression videos and how people deal with it.
Vipassana has helped for some moments but not for a long.
2017-2018 I couldn’t keep up with life, I was afraid trying to find a job because “what if” I would have 4 days breakdown episode. Who needs disabled person at work? I was seeing myself worthless from employee point of view as I was on that place once before.
So 2017-2018 : no job, no insurance, cheating husband(I know he could have been better, but I cannot blame him for trying to find love and joy on the side as I was constantly sad), insomnia, night sweats, brain fog, forgetting words, being histerical due lack of sleep, restless legs in thd night, all senses are just on THE EDGE. On April I got 5 out of 20 days without migraines and being stuck to the bed with closed curtains and wet towel on the head. And 22d april I got bitten by tick, which can be a blessing as I ve learned a lot about decease online. My psycian prescribed 14 days of Doxycycline and ALL THE SYMPTOMS ( migraines, depression, anxiety, etc) dissapeared. I m very weak but kind of happy that i dont have this constant torture anymore. But this morning weird thing has happened. I fainted with lost feeling of body, no vision, and when i got back to myself again my legs and arms were shaking like in seizures. Could it be herx? or after one week of Doxycycline it us not possible.
I need help. My psycian is not a help at all. Igenex and other tests are so expensive. I feel like i m in viscous cycle. Fortunately my cheating husband is still nearby and can help somehow.

Due all thd symptoms can it be Lyme or other co-infections?
If someone knows LLMD in New York area, please share here.

Post Edited (arieco) : 5/3/2018 9:21:06 AM (GMT-6)

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   Posted 5/3/2018 11:57 AM (GMT -6)   
Hi arieco - welcome!

I'm so sorry for all the suffering you've endured.

i'm glad you found your way here to the forum. We can help you with finding a LLMD...and also can help you with questions you may have. Lots of knowledge and experience here on the forum.

In addition to members giving you recommendations, you can also email me...and I can provide you with options in New York for LLMD's.

You will need to enable your email - through "My Profile" so members can send you names privately. We don't post the names of our LLMD's on here for their privacy and protection.

Hang in there...

I'm so sorry about your cheating husband....I can't imagine what you're going through.
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   Posted 5/3/2018 12:07 PM (GMT -6)   
Thank you so much for the response.

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   Posted 5/4/2018 11:54 AM (GMT -6)   
Hi Arieco, cool you mentioned Vipassana. I have been practising for almost ten years and done a few retreats during my Lyme illness. For me it has been a very good way to deal with this situation, and it does make the illness go away at times. It is hard during the retreats for me though, would love to hear your experiences..

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   Posted 5/4/2018 12:49 PM (GMT -6)   
The first time i went to Vipassana it did miracles to me. I have had bad tailbone and pelvic pain and was not moving mostly, also I ve experiencing harsh depression so I didn’t want to live. And I felt blessed that one spot left available and i didn’t have to wait to sit in vipassana for 6 months. then i kept meditating 2 hours a day and was eating vegan and no alcohol etc. I was little weak but overall everything was normal. Then I stopped meditating due stress, started eatjng junk food and all the stuff. Stress was very strong, I figured my husband’s cheating and was in bed all april. literally didnt move. Then vipassana hellped of course to put myself back together but i started having verg hard time just sit still. I was raged and aggressive and just wantrd to hit husband and all these thoughts kind of blacked me out.
Funny thing, last two months i was making attempts to meditate but it was just not working. And since i m on doxycycline i have some clarity back in my mind and soul.
What was your experience with vipassana? are you still in practie?
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