If you ARE on antibiotics, I strongly suggest taking an abx holiday. I was in your shoes a couple of weeks ago--ready to give up. My LLMD suggested a break from abx, and after skipping just two doses, and drinking literally about
two gallons of lemon water and apple cider vinegar, I felt like a new person. Seriously--overnight the sun came out and I could cope again.
I believe it was ammonia buildup in my brain, and I needed to clear it OUT of my body.
The plan was to start abx up again, slowly, after 3-4 days. But I haven't started up again yet. I cannot return to that dark place. Just can't. So instead I'm trying the Jernigan regimen of Borrelogen and Anti Tox. So far, so good. And most importantly--NO suicidal outlook. Thanks Deejavu, by the way, for the suggestion.
Livingforhope--if you ARE on conventional antibiotics, I would strongly suggest taking a complete holiday from all killing agents and focusing on detox--epsom salt baths (if you can tolerate them--I can't), and lots and lots of lemon water. Maybe some ACV and activated charcoal. Hang in there--sounds like your brain might be overloaded with toxins and you need to get them out.
Probably sick for more than 20 years. Crashed in Aug. of 2013. Completing 12 months of treatment as of Aug. 2014, and feeling much better! Have taken a wide variety of antibiotics, antiparasitics and herbals for blood-diagnosed Babesia, Erlichia and Anaplasma, and suspected Bart and Lyme.
Bitten by two ticks in March of 2016, which seems to have set off a new infection.