Panic yes, and I think these buggers (Lyme n co bacteria) will bring out whatever fear you are focusing on, whether it logically makes sense or not, it's not always fear of ticks, but often other fears and anxiety.
However that's a fairly realistic fear tempered by real events, that of wanting to avoid ticks and being aware of how debilitating they can be.
I'm very aggressive with mosquitoes now, in a way that I didn't used to be, now that I know how much misery and disease they can transmit, I swiftly kill them and I'm extra mindful when they are buzzing around me.
I would be extra vigilant and paranoid when hiking in the woods if I ever dared to venture that far again, careful to avoid tall grass and stay in the cleared areas. That's just knowing what I know now, and how dangerous these crawling disease needles are.
I think yours is a healthy fear, and might make you safer to be aware of your environment to keep it as tick free as possible.
edit: and sorry for the tangent, it's like I'm calmly narrating the nightmare you are having (lol im so sorry about
that) , but yes I've woken up drenched in sweat, I've felt disturbing psychological and physical pain simultaneously, I've yelled myself awake on numerous occasions to where the neighbors heard me. I've had some of the worst hallucinatory panic attacks one could imagine...nevermind the myriad other neuro-psych manifestations, vivid sound loops, feeling like I'm literally going crazy.
On a positive note, it is manageable. Be good to yourself, learn about
calming herbs, smells, try to do low stress things.
just remember it's not you, it's the bacteria and toxins working their way out, it's hard to keep that in mind I know when you feel nothing but abject fear, discomfort and you can't sleep. This is a multi systemic ailment and hard to shake.
Just keep coming back here with your fellow spoonies for support : ]
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