Sadly and if it is any consolation, I have felt much if not all of what you are talking about, right down to the word loss, not wanting to attend relatives' celebrations, loss of income, intense emotions, rage and irritability that are hard to control. It's hard to imagine how this all adds up and brings one nearer a dark place than usual, until you experience it. On a scale of 1-10 even my teenage angst and problems didnt bring me past a 7 (1 being very happy, 10 being super depressed and wanting to die), but I've seen 8.5s and 9s during the worst herxs.
Here's the thing, while I won't tell you to "snap out of it" you can definitely manage with a few essential things. 1. alka seltzer gold will alkalize your system and should calm you right down 2. glutathione 3. back off some treatments for awhile until you can recover ( I find myself cycling through bad times, and I'll change things up to try to feel different, different diet, sometimes cheat-days, sometimes a string of strict keto/paleo days and intermittent fasting.)
And there is nothing routine or usual about dealing with all the symptoms, but yours sound very familiar, pretty much textbook Lyme and Co, with probably some extra-Co (infections) thrown in.
You just have to give yourself a chance to function with 30% of the spoons you used to have.
Sometimes you get the spoons back. Well we hope so anyway.
And don't be afraid to seek assistance (financial also) to where you can maybe see a psych, counselor, get meds to pull you through those rough patches. I'm glad I have some of these meds to rely on, like trazodone for much needed sleep and hydroxyzine as a sedative anti anxiety. They're not that expensive and you can get help if your income is low or even non-existent.
Tick bite/EM rash +10 years ago
Active, athletic, with past concussions.
1st known bite: tick infested area, flu, chills, fever, neuro symptoms.
Treat with ABX/herbs recently (2-5 years now).
Get symptom free with strict diet: paleo/keto/IM fasting
Have done Buhner's Protocol, Doxycycline, Amoxicillin, Supplements.
IgG via IgeneX 31-IND, 41++, 58+ (Sep-2016)
IgM via IgeneX 31+, 41-IND (Sep-2016)