Let me start by suggesting you try not to let yourself become a nervous, anxiety ridden mess. It will not help and can end up being detrimental. Much easier said than done, I know. I've been there and wish I had the tools, for me pharmaceuticals, to better deal with it.
Unfortunately, I fall in the category you ask about.
Diagnosed with and tested positive for Lyme, etc about a year and a half ago though I'd been symptomatic for a number of years. Last April I was diagnosed with breast cancer.
Fortunately, my Lyme related symptoms have been much better lately, so I don't really feel like I am dealing with both, right now.
Strangely, one of the scariest things for me was having to stop the antibiotics for Lyme when I went in for the cancer surgery. It has been almost 5 months since the antibiotics were stopped, and so far so good.
Coping probably varies greatly from person to person. I was so relieved with the Lyme diagnosis. After being sent from one doctor to another for many months, and being tested for a lot of terrible sounding illnesses, Lyme sounded like a piece of cake. According to what I read online, all that was needed for a cure was a couple of weeks of antibiotics. Little did I know!
With Lyme, Bartonella, and Ehrlichia, I was SICK. So sick. The breast cancer, while to me a much worse diagnosis than Lyme, was not nearly as debilitating. There was recovery from surgery, etc to deal with, but physically it has been much less painful and life altering on a day to day basis.
What you have found with your massages is not necessarily cancer. It is likely something else. Hopefully, it will be like your thyroid experience ... testing that shows everything is okay.
Do what you can to not let your mind go to dark places. Hang in there!
Thank you for telling your story, mereish. I had an opposite reaction to the Lyme diagnosis. I knew it was going to be a battle. Cancer, on the other hand is a very hard diagnosis to swallow, but there have been so many advancement in treatment. To have both? It could be almost too much. It sounds like you came through your cancer like a champion. ☺️
The only thing that made me anxious (other than doing the lymph massage over my breasts; boy do I hate doing it), was making the two appointments yesterday, so close together. It was like a double whammy, but I’m religious and I put my worries in the Lord’s hands.
My Dad is more worried than I am. He is already talking about
cancer treatment, thanks to a very long relationship with a woman who’s son is a groundbreaking oncologist. I had to tell him to hold the horses.
The thyroid biopsy earlier this year was awful. I wasn’t prepared for no local anesthesia. The only thing that is worse for me than that is dealing with the craziness of Bartonella and neurodegeneration of all of my diseases; which is a much bigger deal.
Thank you for centering me.