Wisco woman said...
I just read lightlifes post that said.....
"I have so much love for all and any of you.
This is such a lonely disease. No one understands or gets it.
Take care of yourselves."
And it was perfect timing because i just got into a fight with my boyfriend. This was the topic of our fight -the fact that this is a lonely disease. I basically made him feel like he wasn't there for me (which isn't true- hes been there since the beginning, by my side) but I told him he doesn't live in the constant hell that I do...that he doesn't know how it feels to live your life like this.
Do you guys find yourself pushing away relationships? I feel like I'm making things go to crap between us. But I also feel like I can't help it cuz my health puts me such a dark place. Any thoughts would be helpful. I'm so lonely right now... I feel like you guys are the only ones who really get it.
Wisco woman - I’m sorry you’re going through this... I wish I could give you a big (gentle) hug right now.
While I can’t say I’m actively pushing my hubby away... I’m certainly not putting much effort into our relationship. I am so absorbed with my illness that I have little left for him.
I’m not even the slightest bit excited about
Xmas shopping and Xmas in general this year.
It’s always been my favorite holiday - but I couldn’t care less...
Hang in there - we’ll get there ...
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Symp started April/2013; Buhner's Lyme May 15-July24/14; Igenex pos. July 3/14
Doxy: July 4-Aug.24/14;Zithro July26-Aug24/14; Amox + Proben. Aug. 29/14;
added biaxin Sept. 26/14
Disc. amox,added Ceftin Nov. 20th.;
Disc. biaxin added Buhner bart herbs Dec/14;Jan/15 pulsing Tinda (w/ Ceftin);
Abx/herb break Apr-July/15; July-mino; Aug. added Rif;
Nov./15 mino - to biaxi