Posted 12/7/2018 3:44 AM (GMT -7)
Thank you, goshawk. I put a lot of pressure on myself, and need some relief sometimes. Nowadays, I know what is stressful, but still mounting more pressure on myself to get better, do better, I keep oscillating back and forth from strict and perfectionist, fighting for survival, to all pressure is off and totally letting myself go adrift deferring lofty dreams, even though some may very well be doable if I find that special spark again. I get confused as I read a self help and time management articles, and those get jumbled to where I don't even know where to begin sometimes. I feel like I had made a decision to delay or cancel an important difficult time-intensive deadline thing...and then minutes later I feel nothing, no drive, no spark, yeah maybe my nervous system is scarred and/or damaged that way. I know I'm depressed.
But you know what, goshawk, I'm going to honor your support and do a few easy things today.
1st known bite/EM rash +10 years ago
tick infested area, flu, chills, fever, neuro-symptoms.
Formerly athletic, + concussions
Symptom free with strict diet: paleo/keto/IM fasting
Did Buhner's Protocol, Doxycycline, Amoxicillin, Supplements.
IgG via IgeneX 31-IND, 41++, 58+ (Sep-2016)
IgM via IgeneX 31+, 41-IND (Sep-2016)