Posted 10/24/2019 1:58 PM (GMT -7)
I'm so sorry I did not see your message until now.
How are you? It is so great to hear from you.
I've been better to be honest, there's something on my mind that's been bothering me.
I have been putting off sharing it here, because I owe so much to you guys, especially you two Hoagie and bluelyme.
I guess I'll just say it...
I think I might take a (possible permanent) break from BVT.
Please allow me to explain why. As I don't say this easily.
BVT changed my life for the better. A lot better. I owe so much to these bees.
When I got infected with Lyme disease, I lost everything.
Friends, money, my apartment, my car.
It got so bad that there were nights where I was homeless.
Even this last year.
I tried many things, such as antibiotics: doxy, ceftin, zpak, rifampin, flagyl, dapsone...
And herbal protocols: buhner, cowden, etc.
Nothing worked. Not even a little. Even the dapsone didn't make a dent in the Lyme.
My main Lyme symptom is fatigue.
The last years I spent mostly in my bed.
I tried to go to work, only to return 1 or 2 hours later, drained, exhausted, barely able to walk, barely able to open the door to my car (before I lost my car), barely able to drive home. Trying so hard to keep my eyes open while driving.
Then came the bees.
They changed everything for the positive.
I can walk again, I'm not bound to my bed anymore, I found a place to live, and I even (very slowly) work again.
Is there room for improvement? Of course, I still sleep too much, the fatigue is still difficult and I would like to work full days again.
But man, I would be lying if I said the bees did not drastically improve my health.
So why stop now?
There are several reasons, none of them have to do with the effectiveness of Bee Venom.
In fact, that's one thing that I want to make very clear.
Which is that I strongly believe that Bee Venom can completely cure me, or anyone, from Lyme Disease.
Discipline is one reason for me. One thing Lyme took away from me is discipline.
I don't know if there is an underlying depression or my inflamed brain leaning towards some kind of ADHD.
However, I noticed I would order the bees and no matter how much I told myself "do the stings" "do the stings", I would just keep postponing it.
For the same reason, there are often days where I sit at my desk, literally screaming in my head telling myself to work and I just can't make myself do it.
Then when I do start, it's absolute awful quality and only for a few minutes.
I hope that when I get rid of the Lyme, this discipline that I used to have, will come back.
Another reason is my current living situation. I have the best roommates, however, I would be devastated if a bee were to escape and sting one of my roommates. God forbid, they might have an allergic reaction. And no matter how experienced I am now with stinging, the bees sometimes still escape.
One more reason is finances. Although it is one of the most affordable treatments, it is still too expensive to order the packages, right now, for me. There are days where I literally have $5 to my name.
Again, as you can see, none of these reasons have anything to do with BVT or how effective it is.
I will always love the bees, BVT and what they have done for me.
They brought me so incredibly far, I still can't believe it.
I would say, I'm at 60% better right now.
So what is the plan?
I've been reading a lot about disulfiram and am going to try to get rid of the remaining 40% of Lyme using that.
So I want to really make clear, that, if I do get healed, it won't be just disulifram that cured me.
It will be a combination of BVT (60%) + disulfiram (40%), and I feel like I should really mention that is how it is, because of how much BVT has done for me.
Hoagie and bluelyme, I am so incredibly grateful for you two.
I will never forget how much you two have supported me.
If disulfiram doesn't get rid of the 40% remaining, I will come back and finish it with BVT.
However, right now, especially with a cheap source of disulfiram, I think this is in my best interest.
To anyone reading this considering BVT: Please don't let me external factors scare you away from BVT. These factors have nothing to do with how effective BVT is.
Hoagie and bluelyme, I will stay on this forum and, please, please stay in touch with me.
That was one of the things why it was difficult to share this, I don't want to lose touch with you guys.
Take care friends,