Hey UnsightlyCygnet🌠, I'm sorry to hear that
I did a lot of research into pine pollen a while ago, I also read Buhner's book on it.
However, I personally was not convinced that it would do much in terms of testosterone.
Also, just so you know, roid rage is actually a myth, which was was confirmed through a study by NEJM.
If anything, a lot of anabolic steroids can actually make users more emotional, due to aromatization (which causes high estrogen).
Sometimes steroids can however attract a certain "type" of person, "jackasses" for a lack of a better word.
This relatively small subset of steroid users already have anger issues to begin with.
The steroids don't actually cause this. The stereotypical ones are jackasses to begin with.